No Resolutions, Just Renew

As 2014 begins, I won't be posting a year review or resolutions to eat better, workout more etc.

What I will do is focus more on Robin and fulfilling her purpose. What makes me happy? What is that thing that keeps coming to me at night and keeping me awake?

As I get older, I realize that each day GOD opens my eyes and allows me to see another day is an opportunity I get to live in my purpose.

We all have a start date and an end date but while I'm here I want to consciously live in the DASH.

Live in the moment ...

I was driving my children to the mall recently and I had to go pick my husband up from the airport afterwards and the weather was bad and I found myself getting agitated and I almost hit the car in front me because I was distracted. I immediately began talking to myself calmly in my head :

Relax
Slow down
Breath
Be in the moment

I said this over and over until I found myself relaxing, heart rate lowering, my breathing getting back to normal.

You see, what I was panicking over was nothing at all. Worrying about time, traffic and weather was just going to have me end up in an accident, possibly injuring my children and leaving my husband stranded at the airport.
Most times people are racing to go nowhere.

I didn't want that to be me.

I have to be the change I want to see, literally.

Renewing myself each day means I won't carry over the residuals of yesterday.

I won't think about what others have said or done because that should be none of my concern.

My tomorrow isn't promised so why waste my present worrying about my past.

I have never taken my family for granted and I've always shown them my appreciation but I constantly take myself for granted and have never exhibited self-appreciation for who I am.

My renewing process will consist of living in my light, loving me the way I love family, friends, and strangers.

Really listening and honoring the requests of my heart.

I never did that before..

I never knew I could..

I now give myself permission and it feels good

In Pursuit of Myself

As I sit in this airport terminal alone, I have realized a few things about myself. Its amazing what a little introspection will do, when given the time.
For one, I know what I want to do in life and the things that make me happy but I tend to do other things in hopes of getting there.
Why do I go around the corner, up the hill, stop at the store, pick up some items, cross the tracks, wait for the train to pass so I can go back across the tracks, when there is a straight path to my destination?
No detour signs, no snakes or anything else stopping me but yet still I have to go around the mulberry bush?
But this is good for me and there is a life lesson in every choice I make and every path I travel.
This is not a rough draft or a dress rehearsal... this is my life and I will live by my rules...not by what someone else says. I will step out and walk my path and not make the road of life harder for me than it has to be...I will be me and choosing to be yourself can be the hardest and bravest thing anyone ever does in life....